Journal Entry of October 7th
Even when I feel overwhelmed, you remind me that surrender is the only way to freedom, healing, and to acquire sight of Your true glory.
The act of surrendering requires lessening of myself in order for You to be lifted high.
Surrender is a heart posture that we must choose everyday.
" Lord I surrender my thoughts, desires, and even emotions to you before even stepping foot outside the door."
Though surrender may hurt, I know I must lay myself down upon the altar in order for YOU to bring the fire.
Burn away that is not of You.
As modern Christians, I believe we are terrified of surrender.
I'm not talking about the "conversion" surrender here (AKA the coming to Jesus moment). I'm referring to the everyday surrender. The type of surrender that brings us to our knees every morning. Bowing to the King of Kings with reverence crying out, "Lord, I am desperate for you. Today, I surrender to you."
We read of so many biblical figures bowing to the King.
But why do we not?
"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is names, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being.." Ephesians 3:14-16 (emphasis added).
I want to suggest that we have absolutely no idea what true surrender looks like.
When is the last time you had to bow to a king?
However you want to see bowing : literally on your knees with your face down, or a heart posture of surrender, it doesn't matter...
The problem here is that we want the healing without the surgery;
We want the freedom without the fight;
We want the prophetic word for the person beside us at church, but not the months of getting up at 6am to meet with Jesus.
So WHY is it important to bow in surrender to the Lord each day?
Well, instead of my words let's just reread those verses along with rest of Ephesians 3:
"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is names, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith - that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:14-19
Sounds pretty good, right?
I believe there is so much more we have to learn about the faithfulness, power, goodness, and steadfastness of our God, but it requires us to daily choose to surrender.
But I, through the abundance of your steadfast love, will enter your house. I will bow down toward your holy temple in the fear of you. Lead me, O Lord, in your righteousness because of my enemies; make your way straight before me.
Ps 5:7-8 (emphasis added)